Demi Lovato gets candid about her eating disorder in new documentary
Throughout her career, singer Demi Lovato has been outspoken about her trials with eating disorders and encouraged her fans to strive for a healthy body image. However, there is one thing she rarely talks about: her ongoing struggle with her own eating disorder.
Like many who have largely overcome their eating disorders, Demi admits in a new YouTube documentary that food is “still the biggest challenge in my life.”
In the documentary, Simply Complicated – out now – Demi details how her history of disordered eating and negative body image still haunts her. In fact, she recently relapsed after a breakup with longtime boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama.
“When I was in a relationship with Wilmer I went three years without purging and when we broke up that’s one of the first things I did,” she says in the documentary. “The less I have to think about food, the easier it is to go about having a normal life and I don’t want to let anybody down so when I do have moments when I slip up, I feel very ashamed.”
The singer and advocate explains that the first cracks began when she started missing Wilmer. Before long, this led to dangerous old habits.
“When I feel lonely, my heart feels hungry and I end up bingeing,” she explains. This unhealthy relationship with food goes all the way back to her childhood, as Demi recalls first bingeing when she was eight.
“I had started working at that time and was under a lot of stress, so I would bake cookies for my family and I would eat all of them and nobody would have any to eat.” She says. “That was my first memory of food being that medicine for me.”
Relapses are not uncommon among those recovering from an eating disorder. It is such a frequent issue that the National Eating Disorders Association described relapsing as a “natural part of the recovery progress.”
Lavato has since recovered from her relapse and says “things have gotten better, and things have gotten easier.”
Still, Demi Lavato recognizes that recovering from an eating disorder is an ongoing process that she is still working through.
“I don’t want to give it the power that it controls my every thought, but it’s something I’m constantly thinking about,” she admits. “Body image, what I wish I could be eating, what I wish I could be eating next, what I wish I didn’t eat, you know, it’s just constant.”
You can watch the documentary below or on YouTube.
If you are living with an eating disorder or struggling with your own recovery, give Brookhaven a call at (888) 298-4673. We can answer any questions you have and help you find the best treatment plan for you.